I recommend poking around in your mind to find out what's actually in your mind, especially when you're considering taking action. I've found it helpful to find out what's going on before trying to make changes.
I tried to follow this, though I'm not sure I did it in quite the way you meant, and I realized something potentially useful, then immediately--after staying focused on the introspection task for quite some time--wound up wandering off to think about Harry Potter and other things not at all useful to solving the problem. I can only assume my brain decided that the apiphony was sufficient and we were free to cool down.
Anyway, this does seem like a useful direction for now, so thanks!
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