I don't think your writing is unclear :)
I can see myself in this post and I think you are right that this is an emotional problem! Which in part means I don't believe you'll resolve the contempt by trying to think your way through it.
I think instead it would be cool to have a discussion where you feel the contempt and the shame you have around it, as well as giving those emotions space without denying them.
There are questions I would be interested in understanding, such as, in what ways do you feel judged for having this contempt? Do you feel it's unfair? ... (read more)
What did you find interesting about this?
It's intended to be an interesting thought experiment about the strange extremes but I'm finding it offensive because of how human the construction reads. I find the real CoT examples far more fascinating for the ways they don't meet my expectations and I'm wanting us to stay in contact with the reality of how this technology is developing in a way that this kind of curation might miss.
What is the value you are seeing in the curation that I'm missing?