A lot of the ideas you mention here remind me of stuff I've learnt from the blog commoncog, albeit in a business expertise context. I think you'd enjoy reading it, which is why I mentioned it.
Presumably, you have this self-image for a reason. What load-bearing work is it doing? What are you protecting against? What forces are making this the equilibrium strategy? Once you understand that, you'll have a better shot of changing the equilibrium to something you prefer. If you don't know how to get answers to those questions, perhaps focus on the felt-sense of being special.
Gently hold a stance of curiosity as to why you believe these things, give your subconscious room and it will float up answers your self. Do this for perhaps a minute or so. It can feel like there's nothing coming for a while, and nothing will come, and then all of a sudden a thought floats into view. Don't rush to close your stance, or protest against the answers you're getting.
Yep, that sounds sensible. I sometimes use consumer reports in my usual method for buying something in product class X. My usual is:
1) Check what's recommended on forums/subreddits who care about the quality of X.
2) Compare the rating distribution of an instance of X to other members of X.
3) Check high quality reviews. This either requires finding someone you trust to do this, or looking at things like consumer reports.
Asa's story started fairly strong, and I enjoyed the first 10 or so chapters. But as Asa was phased out of the story, and it focused more on Denji, I felt it got worse. There were still a few good moments, but it's kinda spoilt the rest of the story, and even Chainsaw Man for me. Denji feels like a caricature of himself. Hm, writing this, I realize that it isn't that I dislike most of the components of the story. It's really just Denji.
EDIT: Anyway, thanks for prompting me to reflect on my current opinion of Asa Mitaka's story, or CSM 2 as I think of it. I don't think I ever intended that to wind up as my cached-opinion. So it goes.
Why not Valve?