A really moving post that I'm very happy I read.
I made an account just to say that a few paragraphs in I subconsciously, somehow recognised the person that was writing this. I can't entirely put my finger on it, but it was something about the level of introspection, the use of the word "optimise" and level of enthusiasm highlighted by the exclamation points that made me feel that way.
When you referenced yourself by name it clicked! We spoke briefly at a Warwick AI Summit on the topic of finding a meaningful career and I'm an avid reader of your blog.
Apologies for the off-topic post. I find thorough enjoyment in digesting your thoughts and hope that you continue to do what you do.