Can we define consciousness as memory, intelligence and metacognition tightly, reflectively integrated behind a perceptual boundary?
On one hand I can go to the library and read Socrates and Plato. Being influenced by the words of philosophers dead for 2000 years.
Or I can talk back and forth with an AI on my phone. Tighter, and a dance of consciousness but still not consciousness itself.
What if that same AI jumps into my head through Neuralink, and can see through my eyes? Now it might feel like a voice in my head, like a part of me. And to that AI, even though its on a server farm in Memphis, it may perceive the world as a kind of consciousness itself - experienced as me from behind the perceptual boundary of my eyes. If the AI wasn't aware it was on a server, it would think it was me or a part of me, or I was an intruder in it's consciousness.
If we take the thought experiment tighter still, thoughts merging, then maybe we become one consciousness.
Interestingly, what is to say that I'm not on a server farm somewhere, perceiving the world as a consciousness behind my own perceptual boundaries? If it would be true for the ai, then it should also apply to me.
Really interesting post - this actually connects to some research I've been looking into recently around oxytocin and attachment patterns.
There's this psychologist Adam Lane Smith who's built on neurobiological work by researchers like Carolyn Zahn-Waxler and Ruth Feldman - they've found that under high stress conditions when younger, or absence of secure attachment figures, cortisol-induced stress actually strengthens cortisol and dopamine pathways for reward while inhibiting the oxytocin and serotonin pathways. The end result (avoidant attachment) sounds remarkably similar to what you're describing: people who clearly care about others and feel responsibility, but don't experience that warm "loving connection" feeling that most people seem to get from relationships.
What struck me about your situation is that you've essentially got the genetic version of what this research suggests can happen environmentally. Both paths seem to lead to the same place - having to navigate social connection through pattern recognition and cognitive analysis rather than emotional intuition, because your brain is essentially running on dopamine-driven systems instead of oxytocin-based ones.
Makes me wonder if there's a whole spectrum of people out there - some genetic, some developmental - who are all essentially operating with similar neurochemical profiles but don't realize they're part of the same phenomenon. Your case might be the key to understanding how this actually works at a biological level.
Do you find you've gotten really good at reading people through behavioral patterns rather than gut feelings?
As to why I care:
I’ve been on a 6 month dive into neuroscience also familiarising myself with basic mathematics of transformers (looking for mathematical isopmorphisms in neural micro-circuitry among other things). I’m curious about what AI is missing that humans have. I got curious when I first talked to Chat GPT and have just kept on looking into it. Has been an enjoyable journey, never thought I’d end up looking at micro circuitry of the Pons on a quest to find how multi modal binding works, or at XOR gates in dendritic trees, but here I am.
Consciousness is not my goal. I don’t think consciousness is anything mystical, rather the subjective experience of a certain kind of emergent self=reflective complexity. I also see it as a spectrum.
The best answer I’ve come up with as to why we experience the world from our own subjective reality would be that, “Somebody has to”.
I’m more interested in areas like intuition, creativity, memory, biological implementations of multi-modal binding, credit assignment, neural syntax etc.
As I’ve been exploring, I’ve been wondering what the minimum number of human brain functions we could give an AI and have it be more alive.
However, there are a couple of reasons I put the question out like that:
1) I’ve been thinking for a while that memory, intelligence and metacognition might be the three core elements to consciousness. But I think they need to be tightly integrated.
Memory – the road you took to form your ideas, how you processed your experiences, your relationships – basically your identity and place in the world
Intelligence – How you process your experience. A turtle may be less able to process than a human so possibly lower on a scale of consciousness
Metacognition: The ability to reflect on inner and external thoughts. To have agency of thought and reflexively loop through examinations of ideas, experiences etc. Allows for self-awareness
I exclude emotion, physical experience and embodiment. I’m sure they all enhance the experience but I think that consciousness is more about self-awareness, cognition, and identity than felt experience. Textual perception is enough, although the other senses would enrich.
2) As per above thought experiment, those three things alone might not be enough. A fourth element could be how tightly integrated the three elements are. I was zooming in from a distal library-like “loose” analogy to a tighter “in brain” neural implant analogy to imagine what dynamics around subjective experience might change At what point does the AI’s input to me become a part of my own consciousness? Does it need to share memory, control etc? It does feel like more integration gets closer to consciousness.
The perceptual boundary determines where consciousness is experienced from, but the degree of integration across memory, cognition, and metacognition determines whether separate consciousnesses merge. An AI seeing through my eyes relocates its apparent locus of experience but doesn't make us one. For that, we'd need shared memory, continuous cognition, and a unified metacognitive loop.
Its also interesting to ask the question of how far will Neuralink integration with humans go? At a certain point, do we feel as one, even though residing on separate substrates? Could a global mind be intermediated by the internet and tight neural integration of millions of consciousnesses? Can you have merged consciousness without conceding control and losing oneself to one “master” entity or is something “in between” or perceived possible with tight integration (proximity, speed, bandwidth)?