That day I was walking in the dull corridors of the university. I stumbled upon this research poster on Alpha Centauri, the kind which they only display in dull corridors. Shortly after, my double-PhD physics teacher (the kind they put in dull corridors) walked behind me saying "hi". Yes, a physics teacher saying "hi", play your suspension of disbelief card. I was taken by surprise and wondered about the reasons he had to greet me (usually he didn't), but I managed to remember I had to answer. I answered "hjwjv".

Later on, I tried wanting to say "hey" and a "hey" sound emanated from my vocal cord: the volition-and-body-movements-are-connected belief still paid rent.

As a thesis-angsted graduate student, I thought...Analysis Paralysis...

There seems to be profound reasoning behind oneself overboard paralytic social thinking: a consciousness of the incompressible whole that is such a concept as a person and, by extension, the induced exponential data processing from trying to scale this whole, the type of thinking that forbids any action. Analysis Paralysis.

Consider the brain: billions of neurones firing in what any derivative would consider an instantaneous lapse of time, capable of reason, technique, reflective thinking, of abstraction, of abstraction square. The current mathematical instruments are unable to model this complexity and the current humans will probably be unable to cognitively model those models between two lines of dialogue.

To “hjwjv” when you want to “hey” is to acknowledge in the other’s self this same bunch of dreads, dreams, sorrows, ambitions that define your own world; an empathetic awe realization of the hidden information singularizing into a slangish west Germanic greeting device. Unable to take into account the size of prior knowledge collapsing in a “hey”, the hardware crashes. Humbly, the shy acknowledges that the complexity of a mere conversation is beyond the scope of seizable magnitudes.

Now one might take this as proof of moral superiority. Only the social incompetent considers people as ends, not mere tools to his goals. Only he can conceptualize the deep true nature of a human-human relation. If the charismatic extravert seems to know, the shy him knows he does not. There is nothing to change about it.

But it doesn't work...

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