This post is mostly personal; it may annoy or dismay some readers. I’m leaving it on LessWrong because it does touch on issues relevant to the community, and also because I have nowhere else to go.
content warning: death, grief, and not-so-rational coping mechanisms
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My grandfather died in December.
He had a stroke several months ago. The weather was getting chilly, so he and my grandmother visited their countryside cottage to prepare the garden for winter. As they were ready to drive back home, grandpa suddenly staggered and fell over. He was brought to hospital quickly, and the surgery was successful, and all the circumstances seemed so favorable, and I was dumb enough to expect... (read 1873 more words →)