This is great AI-powered self-reflection! I wish I had the patience to do the same.
LessWrong isn't a place to satisfy a basic need for social engagement, and it's not a place to engage when I'm worn out and isolated.
I suspect this is true about internet in general.
I wonder where phone calls are on this scale, because I suspect that a large part of difference is that when sitting and typing, your body is tense, and that inevitably translates to your emotions and thoughts.
Thank you!
I wonder where phone calls are on this scale, because I suspect that a large part of difference is that when sitting and typing, your body is tense, and that inevitably translates to your emotions and thoughts.
Physical tension makes sense to me as a contributing factor, along with the pace, sensory channels, and social relationships that are involved in feedback.
When I post, most of the initial feedback is from anonymous voting. I find it hard not to monitor the voting behavior. Each up or downvote delivers a dose of pleasure or frustration. Ideally, I'd like to be driven by curiosity and sensitive to the quality of my work, not voting dynamics. That might be an argument for blogging elsewhere, or building a habit of using readers that strip out voting information when I consume content, including my own.
Did you try to see how often you were right (in Claude's opinion, or maybe your own in hindsight) when you were downvoted? For example, you said you'd get downvoted for attributing motives to other people. If you were right and just not nice, it seems like a different story than if you're wrong too.
At least once you knew you were doing it and did it anyway, which fits if you believed at the time that you were right and didn't care that people wouldn't like it being pointed out in that way. Learning "They indeed did not like it" is a different update than "Actually... I was wrong too".
Cool analysis, thanks for posting
Thanks! I did ask it to evaluate those questions as well. There were some occasions where Claude “sided” with me, either on specific takes or a general impression that tribalism or ego was playing a role in the pushback I was getting. But on the whole, I think that my heated or contentious way of expressing myself and the amount of work I was putting in to backing up my claims were out of alignment in the cases it identities. It’s a specific enough rhetorical pattern, and feels true and specific enough to me, that I do think Claude succeeded in identifying an important failure mode in my thinking process - even if the claim I was making wasn’t always wrong.
I would say that I feel more at ease here, having grown weary of life in the real world. Dissenting opinions in the real world tend to be far harsher than they are here. In fact, if the goal is to foster intimate relationships, meeting in person is far better; this platform is not at all suited for that. However, as a space for exchanging views on public matters, it is fantastic.
I thought it would be interesting to try having Claude Code download my entire LessWrong and EA Forum post and comment history and evaluate it for my own cognitive biases and problematic communication patterns. I told it to focus especially on problems that have persisted over my 7-year history on those sites. I also had it look at my lichess blitz rating history, which I've noticed tends not to wobble randomly but go through consistent increases and decreases between set points, despite my lack of any disciplined practice.
There are a few reasons I thought it might be interesting to post publicly.
I considered including apologies to the specific users who Claude identified as being on the receiving end of my episodes of poor communication. But I thought that felt a bit cheap or mechanical. Instead, I'll simply say that this post is meant as a sincere step toward improving my art of rationality, and I hope that it will lead to improvements in how I communicate with other people, including on LessWrong.
Epistemic status: Casually prompted Claude Code running Opus 5.5 to assess my LessWrong and EA Forum post and comment history along with my Lichess blitz scores over the last 7 years to understand persistent forms of cognitive bias, communication problems, and potential associations with aging, stress, isolation and conflict. I understand there is quantitative and semantic analysis along with agentic scoring of text, but I haven't actually looked into it beyond the summaries provided in Claude Code. This is basically me interpreting a conversation I had with an AI model. Everything in this post is my own words, not AI writing.
Low-scoring comments and problem patterns
Nearly all my low/negative-scoring comments, of which I generate around 1-4% per year, are in disagreement threads.
The persistent communication patterns that are found in my low-karma posts include:
The pattern that unites all these problems is a single cycle. I make a loose claim about a neighbor to my conversation partner's point. This draws a correction, which I defend by narrowing, attributing motive, or making an asymmetric demand for rigor.
My strengths and positive patterns
To practice
Root causes
I think that these critiques are basically right as a summary of my most pressing flaws as a thinker and communicator. My problems with tone have also gotten substantially worse over the last two years. I've noticed this, and whatever's underpinning my increasingly cantankerous relationship with LessWrong has also infected other aspects of my life. I'm grouchier, write less, and am in some ways less curious than I used to be. So I thought it would be interesting to consider the biographical factors that might contribute to this pattern.
In 2019, I was starting to pivot my career. I was 30 years old and transitioning from becoming a music teacher to going into the sciences. It was pre-COVID, pre-AI-explosion, pre-Scott-Alexander-doxxing, pre-FTX era. LessWrong and Effective Altruism felt like new discoveries, and EA hadn't been rocked by the FTX scandal. My pivot into scientific work felt exciting. I was 7 years younger than I am now. Worries about pandemics and AI risks were interesting ideas, not live concerns. The community at LessWrong seemed more focused on human rationality and to have a more diverse array of discussion topics.
Since then, we all lived through the disasters, scandals, and the rise of AI. I got 7 years older, did a very isolating and stressful MS in biomedical engineering in Michigan, and am about halfway through a PhD in the same subject in Oregon. In some ways, the culture of these sites has changed, as I remember seeing others note at various times.
I tasked Claude with evaluating whether patterns over time seem to primarily reflect a change in the site's other users or in the way I participate on the site, and to try to locate the changes with more precision. Some of its findings:
My 2023 blowup
In 2023, I developed a year-long grievance about voting, and had what looks like an acute stress window in June-July. My comments were at their best earlier in the year before I left, particularly in Feb 2023. In June–July 2023 I published 13 posts across both forums in about seven weeks, and most landed poorly, while my comments held roughly steady.
Claude identified a few factors that seem pertinent:
Chess
I also downloaded 9,960 of my Lichess blitz games from Aug 2020-2026. This is a nice second signal of my cognitive performance and sleep/wake patterns.
Conclusion
It seems like stress and exhaustion make me more conflict-oriented and grievance-prone. I treat other people with contempt, have less interest in what other people have to say, and participate in forum conversation mainly to fight. Unfortunately, it also looks like isolation leads me to post on the forum in a bid for engagement, and when I'm being lazy or cantankerous because of stress and exhaustion, I piss people off, get a muted or negative reception, take it hard because of the isolation, and spin out.
My takeaways: