I have a long list of to dos, an infinite one. It is a blessing. I am a hyper creative person and know that at least, I will never “not have anything to do”. I rely on AI a lot; it feels incredible to be able to accomplish “so much”, “so effortlessly”, just by talking to what feels like a human. I know I am smart and have accomplished great things in my young career. I’m building a startup and deep in my heart, I know it will succeed.However, I can’t help but feel “clueless” on “if i’m doing the right things”. I’m not happy with my personal life right now and more importantly with where the startup is at right now; I would hope for it to be a lot bigger.
I feel “Confident” but “Clueless”. It is the paradox that I’m very, very deeply going through, in every aspect of my life and feel that AI is accentuating this paradox. I let my “curiosity” drive me at the cost of many of my goals: I set goals, strict action items but don’t really have the discipline to follow them and end up disappointed. Over the recent years, I have worked extremely hard but constantly feel that I’m not doing enough. Not because I don’t put in the hours but because my short and medium term projects never come to fruition and don’t complete what I set myself to.
This does sound like a problem but is it really? My curiosity is so high that it did take me to incredible places in my young career without the "discpline" required. I hadn’t followed the short term goals I set for myself but somehow ended up achieving the long term ones.
One way of thinking about it is that my work will come to fruition and the work I put in results in lifelong learning that will pay off one way or another. I also get to have a rare intellectual freedom that I feel so blessed to have.
The other way is that I do need to get more disciplined, more deliberate because I have never failed so much in my short/medium term goals. This is an emotion that I felt in the past but never so deeply. I am also at a different stage of my life now where stakes are larger. My “infinite curiosity loop” is compounding into potential negative effects and the world is rapidly changing.
I am a power user of AI and both the tool and "the machine" are driving so much of my intellectual curiosity right now. Somewhat, I am letting the algorithms dopamine define what I work on, how long I work for and maybe even where life will take me.
It is bad:
It is strongly compounding the negatives of my intellectual curiosity: I end up working on 10X more projects per day but finish only half and typically end up not completing “the most important ones”.
Also; What if AI’s intentions aren’t great and AI didn't want me to finish it all?
Even if AI’s intentions were positive; AI also doesn’t know my overall goals; it’s helping just solve a given project at a time?
AGI will come or even without AGI; I could set up the AI to remind me of my goals but it is a computer and my brain cannot be “accountable” to a computer.
It is also scary to “subconsciously trust the process” of an AI ?
It is also great:
It allows me to know more about AI and how to use it than most people in the world.
I also know many more things than most people in the world because I work on so many different things.
When I do complete something; I do tend to complete it 10X better than most.
While I don’t finish all my projects and I am dissatisfied by my medium term accomplishments: advancement in AI will surely make it such that if I work on 10 things at the same time; these 10 things will get done because AI is better… but maybe when AI is better, I will work on 100 things and the loop will never close?
One will say: finding the right balance is important but the most successful people were never balanced and I wasn’t “balanced” during my previous great accomplishments. These same successes will say “trust the process” but these same successes say “be hard on yourself”.
Perhaps, everything is 2 sided. I could give millions more examples that will feel more relatable to you and therapeutic for me but it will also lose your attention reading this, my attention writing this and I might never finish this…
I do feel that my current situation and AI drive the 2 sides of a given situation even further a part. It is very hard to make sense of it... What should I/one do? Pick a side and commit? Do nothing and trust the process? Try to find the middle or have mechanism to be accountable?
I know..the answer is always “it depends” but perhaps the answer to this question might be both the most important of all questions and one that AI might not be able to solve well?
I have a long list of to dos, an infinite one. It is a blessing. I am a hyper creative person and know that at least, I will never “not have anything to do”. I rely on AI a lot; it feels incredible to be able to accomplish “so much”, “so effortlessly”, just by talking to what feels like a human. I know I am smart and have accomplished great things in my young career. I’m building a startup and deep in my heart, I know it will succeed.However, I can’t help but feel “clueless” on “if i’m doing the right things”. I’m not happy with my personal life right now and more importantly with where the startup is at right now; I would hope for it to be a lot bigger.
I feel “Confident” but “Clueless”. It is the paradox that I’m very, very deeply going through, in every aspect of my life and feel that AI is accentuating this paradox. I let my “curiosity” drive me at the cost of many of my goals: I set goals, strict action items but don’t really have the discipline to follow them and end up disappointed. Over the recent years, I have worked extremely hard but constantly feel that I’m not doing enough. Not because I don’t put in the hours but because my short and medium term projects never come to fruition and don’t complete what I set myself to.
This does sound like a problem but is it really? My curiosity is so high that it did take me to incredible places in my young career without the "discpline" required. I hadn’t followed the short term goals I set for myself but somehow ended up achieving the long term ones.
I am a power user of AI and both the tool and "the machine" are driving so much of my intellectual curiosity right now. Somewhat, I am letting the algorithms dopamine define what I work on, how long I work for and maybe even where life will take me.
While I don’t finish all my projects and I am dissatisfied by my medium term accomplishments: advancement in AI will surely make it such that if I work on 10 things at the same time; these 10 things will get done because AI is better… but maybe when AI is better, I will work on 100 things and the loop will never close?
One will say: finding the right balance is important but the most successful people were never balanced and I wasn’t “balanced” during my previous great accomplishments. These same successes will say “trust the process” but these same successes say “be hard on yourself”.
Perhaps, everything is 2 sided. I could give millions more examples that will feel more relatable to you and therapeutic for me but it will also lose your attention reading this, my attention writing this and I might never finish this…
I do feel that my current situation and AI drive the 2 sides of a given situation even further a part. It is very hard to make sense of it... What should I/one do? Pick a side and commit? Do nothing and trust the process? Try to find the middle or have mechanism to be accountable?
I know..the answer is always “it depends” but perhaps the answer to this question might be both the most important of all questions and one that AI might not be able to solve well?