I have not. A reasonable person would have. I think obtaining it rather complicated (in Finland, that is), but possibly worth it. Possibly worth it doesn't mean worth it. I recognize that I'm probably not thinking clearly about this.
But what's the reason to be productive beyond my natural abilities? I fear I would just use it all to make even more money, which doesn't matter to my wellbeing at all. The admiration of others? That would be cheating. Self actualization? I don't think depression will go away by just doing more stuff, the problem isn't not doing enough, it's not enjoying the results. Fixable with other medication? Possibly. (Go to step one)
I mean it really just sounds like you have ADHD is what I mean.
But what's the reason to be productive beyond my natural abilities?
You are complaining about not being productive enough, presumably you care about productivity, why care also about whether its "natural". If you think you have depression instead of ADHD, then the reason is so that you feel better! If Nature decided to make you miserable or distractable, then imo Nature had it coming.
I fear I would just use it all to make even more money, which doesn't matter to my wellbeing at all.
You can always stop (modulo slowly decreasing your dosage so as not to trigger withdrawal if necessary)? For depression, clearly if you treat that with medication, your wellbeing will just definitely go up, regardless of whether you use your extra motivation to make more money.
The admiration of others? That would be cheating.
Plenty of people take drugs to treat mental illness, that is not "cheating" any more than antibiotics, surgery, or any of the other modern miracles we're able to use to better the human condition.
Self actualization? I don't think depression will go away by just doing more stuff, the problem isn't not doing enough, it's not enjoying the results
Then try an anti-depressant. Note also that this is an incorrect theory of depression, depression does indeed get better by doing stuff, and it is a common bias that depressed people have to believe nothing they do will work. If you think you have depression rather than ADHD, then take some antidepressant or something, or actually try to treat what you think you have.
I suggest you stop trying to come up with silly excuses not to fix your problems. That is not to say that there aren't better options than medication, but each of your excuses here either reveal an ignorance about what treatments of mental illnesses actually do, or boil down to "but here's a big brain reason why if it worked that'd actually be bad, therefore I will continue to wallow in misery for my whole life".
Three weeks have passed since the starting this challenge. Writing doesn't feel any easier. The quality of my texts hasn't improved at all, or at least I'm not feeling it. I'm out of topics to write about, and speding so much time writing or stressing about it limits the interactions which could be used as source material. I had hoped to write more about my ideas and values instead of complaining and filler content, yet here I go again. Writing about writing is the boring kind of meta.
For the first time in my life I've been able to do day's work before any fun activities, the way traditional work ethic is taught. It hasn't been of any use; after writing a single text, my mental energy for the day has been used up. When there's no immediate deadline motivating me, nothing will get done. I'm uncertain whether this comes from having insufficient slack, or just lacking robust work-ethic-habits. This makes it hard to build a buffer. Not only because writing something for tomorrow is hard, but also because if I had written something for taking a break later, using it immediately would feel justified.
It's often a struggle for me to switch focus multiple times a day, once or twice seems to be the normal amount, and it's quite taxing. That is, between productive things. It's not that hard to switch between video games, movies, reading, and eating pizza. This also applies for socializing, sometimes even responding to texts requires a context switch. This means it's way more efficient for me to do a lot of one thing at once, instead of spreading it over the whole week. And sometimes when I don't feel like doing something, I just cannot focus on it. The panic from a deadline aften helps, but one thing I have learned is that deadines are almost never fixed, and those that are, you can live without.
This is mostly problem with work. Programming or document reviews sometimes feel like pulling teeth, especially if I feel it's too hard and I'm stuck or even worse, blocked waiting for someone else. Once in a while, I go a couple of weeks producing nothing, especially if I don't feel like I'm making progress. Other weeks, especially on greenfield projects, I lose the sense of time and work productive 10 hour days without any issue. I have tried having normal 9 to 5 job, but I just can't. Eight hours in the office, even on the days when I'm not productive? Unthinkable.
On other areas of life, this also causes issues. Stydying a specific topic is sometimes doable, but not in the way school systems work. University courses are spread over multiple months instead of one intense week, meaning that there's a need to constantly switch focus. I've heard it argued that repetition over time is how we learn, but that's not working for me too well. Not that I'm capable of learning anything I'm not interested in in the first place.