It is often observed that I am kind of ‘in my head’ a lot. And when I'm in company, I tend to attend to the other person a lot and what I feel like is not so much in scope by default. Unless there something loudly wrong with it—e.g. while in conversation I might be quite aware of wanting to crack my joints or of feeling slighted.
An exception, where a kind of bodily experience is more central, is when I'm deciding what I want to eat. Then I am often in a state of imagining food and responding bodily to it like 'mnomnomnom' or 'blech'. I'm not imagining the flavor so much as the physical substance of it and what it would be like to put it inside myself.
This is interesting to me, because if I just ask 'how does my body feel?' it usually seems like a kind of inert space in which there can be discomforts, or sometimes comforts, but the answer is generally like, 'well on closer inspection I guess this region of the space is in mild pain'. But this bodily sense of deliciousness is not like that—it's more like being an active energetic thing than learning some boring facts about which region of a space is what flavor of uncomfortable.
And it isn't that hard to relate to the non-food world with an analogue of this deliciousness-seeking attitude. At least somewhat. And if I conjure it, it feels better than my usual alternative.
I’m pretty sure I’ve noticed this before, and forgotten about it. So time to blog about it, and maybe other people will remind me!
It is often observed that I am kind of ‘in my head’ a lot. And when I'm in company, I tend to attend to the other person a lot and what I feel like is not so much in scope by default. Unless there something loudly wrong with it—e.g. while in conversation I might be quite aware of wanting to crack my joints or of feeling slighted.
An exception, where a kind of bodily experience is more central, is when I'm deciding what I want to eat. Then I am often in a state of imagining food and responding bodily to it like 'mnomnomnom' or 'blech'. I'm not imagining the flavor so much as the physical substance of it and what it would be like to put it inside myself.
This is interesting to me, because if I just ask 'how does my body feel?' it usually seems like a kind of inert space in which there can be discomforts, or sometimes comforts, but the answer is generally like, 'well on closer inspection I guess this region of the space is in mild pain'. But this bodily sense of deliciousness is not like that—it's more like being an active energetic thing than learning some boring facts about which region of a space is what flavor of uncomfortable.
And it isn't that hard to relate to the non-food world with an analogue of this deliciousness-seeking attitude. At least somewhat. And if I conjure it, it feels better than my usual alternative.
I’m pretty sure I’ve noticed this before, and forgotten about it. So time to blog about it, and maybe other people will remind me!