I think you're not describing what your actual experience is clearly enough, and you're unnecessarily getting into Meyers Briggs offshoot stuff that is poisoning the well for whatever you're trying to describe.
Can you describe your subjective experience of this with more clarity and detail?
Everyone IRL either thinks I'm crazy or doesn't understand what I'm describing.
Well, that sums up my reaction, too.
It sounds to me like you are saying that you found a way to focus your attention, and used it to get some IT skills. Cool if true. The rest of your post is less clear. You're looking for a way to figure out when you actually improve and when you are just imagining you are? Someone to talk to about that?
I think that communicating more clearly could be a good start. And maybe take MBTI less seriously, or at least not assume that everyone is familiar with obscure abbreviations of this horoscope equivalent.
If you create a system based on your own experimentation in a psychological field where you deviate from what's normal and you crate a bunch of terms to have a handle on what you are doing, you should assume that those handles are unique to yourself.
There might be someone who does something similar than you, but they are likely not using the same vocabulary.
If you want to ground yourself, journaling frequently about the process is a good idea. It's also good to expose yourself to real world feedback.
I'm 17 and just discovered I'm Ni-dom (INTJ most likely). Before I knew what any of this was, I'd already built my own system for triggering flow states on command and reading my subconscious signals.
The weird part: it works. I went from not knowing what JSON was in July to building multi-agent AI systems now. When I let my intuition just observe without overthinking, my subconscious pulls patterns from everything I've ever experienced and creates routes I couldn't logically think my way to.
I've also developed this two-part system where I read intuitive signals (different intensities, like frequencies), then filter them through logic to find the optimal path. I can trigger deep flow at 9am at my desk every single day now.
But I caught myself trying to use this on casino games thinking I could "feel" the right plays. That's when I realized - this could easily slide into delusion if I don't learn to ground it properly.
The real problem: I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Everyone IRL either thinks I'm crazy or doesn't understand what I'm describing. I need people who:
I'm not looking for validation or academic discussion. I'm looking for actual people I can have conversations with who understand what it's like to think this way.
Anyone here relate? Or know where I should actually be looking for this kind of community?