I'm scared.

[-]DanArmak15y794

I've faced this problem and partially overcome it. I'll try my best to describe this. However, I've also been diagnosed with depression and prescribed SSRIs in the past, so my approaches to handling the problem may not fit you.

You have acquired your estimates of the dangers of the future by explicit reasoning. The default estimates that your emotional, unconscious brain provided you with were too optimistic. This is the case for almost everyone.

Consider that even though you have realized the future is bleak, your emotional, unconscious, everyday-handling mind still hasn't updated its estimates. It is still too optimistic. It just needs to be allowed to express this optimism.

Right now, you probably believe that your emotional outlook must be rational, and must correspond to your conscious estimates of the future. You are forcing your emotions to match the future you foresee, and so you feel afraid.

I suggest that you allow your emotions to become disconnected from your conscious long-term predictions. Stop trying to force yourself to be unhappy because you predict bad things. Say to yourself: I choose to be happy and unafraid no matter what I predict!

Emotions are not a a tool like r... (read more)

[-]Eliezer Yudkowsky15y214

suggest turning this into a post

8DanArmak15y

Thanks for the encouragement; will do.

[-]jimrandomh15y100

Well said, and definitely an important, oft-neglected point. One thing I'd like to add is that if you can control what you feel good and bad about, you can do some nifty things to your behavior. For example, at some point I managed to flip my reaction to noticing flaws in myself from negative (boo, I have a flaw) to positive (yay, I noticed my flaw and can try to fix it now). This made me significantly more reflective.

5Mass_Driver15y

This is fantastic. When you do turn it into a post, though, consider the extent to which emotions and actions are part of a feedback loop -- if I look away from the suffering of others so as not to feel their pain, I may come to accept it as normal, and that in turn may affect my actions.

3Viliam_Bur14y

I think you focus too much on possible negative outcomes. I thought this when reading your article, and reading this comment confirmed it. Yes, it is possible that looking away from the suffering of others will affect your actions, so you will not help them. And it is also possible that looking too much at the suffering of others will make you depressed, so you will not be able to do anything, not even helping them. Seems to me that you prefer to focus on the first possibility and ignore the other one. This is your choice. You are not perfect, and whatever you do, you will never be perfect. This is the bad news. The good news is that you are not perfect, but you can improve. Again, it is your choice whether you focus on the "I can improve" or the "but I will not be perfect anyway" part of the message. Both parts are true. If something is bad, understanding that it is bad doesn't make it worse. You see bad things that you didn't see before, and it makes you sad. But unlike before, now you can also see how to improve things. Even a small improvement is better than nothing (although on higher levels, you should strive for more than just small improvements). Imagine that this is a "lesson 1". Your first lesson is to make a small improvement, and not care about anything else. After you complete the lesson 1, you get to a lesson 2, which requires you to make a bigger improvement. A bigger improvement can either be something larger, or something that provides long-term benefits. But don't skip your lessons. Start with the lesson 1, and focus on the lesson 1. You can do it. The goal for now is not to become perfect. The goal is to complete the lesson 1. Higher challenges await you in next lessons. And yes, sometimes the progress is slow. Don't complain and focus on your lessons. Do something. Then, do something better. Etc.

1Shibetoshi Doggomoto18h

Fifteen years later, I am glad I read this. Great comment, DanArmak.

1Davorak15y

I weakly disagree. Emotions are something the human race have evolved over a long period of time to make sure our gene's reproduce and contain useful insights. The non-defective ones are perfectly rational, but importantly are based on outdated data. It take a long time for basic human emotion to update it's view point because it take so long for humans to multiple and undergo natural selection. So they are a tool as well just a very different one with strategies that are often outdated by a quickly changing data set.

2DanArmak15y

Emotions are far worse than simply being 'not updated'. They have bigger faults: * Not always beneficial: often they do more harm than good, by anyone's accounting, and rational thought gives better guidance. It's almost never beneficial to be severely depressed, or to lose self-control in anger, yet the conditions are pretty common. They are failure modes of the system, not misapplied reactions. * Not always selfish: emotions are optimized evolutionarily for inclusive genetic fitness, which is often at cross purposes with personal interest. Emotions drive people to hurt others and risk themselves in various ways to increase IGF. * The social contract requires that we suppress our emotions a lot of the time; it would be better for us if these particular emotions weren't too strong. * Strong emotions which you're not acting on are often painful to experience.

5Davorak15y

I mentioned two failure modes, emotions based on out of date data and defective emotions. I accept that emotions evolved to help our genes replicate and they are often based on out of date data, this does not mean that they can not be used as a tool. I accept that emotions are not always perfect guides and can be defective(In the evolutionary sense) this does not mean that all emotions can not be used as a tool. Most of your points revolve around people not controlling their emotions and/or in someway being a slave to their emotions. Which leads me to believe that my following point was not communicated; that emotions can be used as a tool, not that you should be controlled/dominated by them nor that emotions should be used with out guidance from rational thought. I disagree that you can use your emotions any way you like. I have not witnessed or read of such absolute and deep reprogramming of the human mind. Since they serve a evolutionary purpose even if you could you should not arbitrarily repurpose them, but rather take them into account and use them as one of main data points in some rational thought process. I do not this is self evident. This is only true if there is not benefit to being unhappy. Part of your argument was that some emotions are beneficial, "feeling happy is a good thing." Your argument accepts that some emotions are beneficial and some are not but have not provided any criteria to divide the two groups the ones that useful(tools) and the ones that are not useful(not a tool). It seems to me that calling unhappiness pointless is the equivalent of calling unhappiness evolutionarily defective. One counter point which I think can be considered self evident is that experiencing unhappiness can be a strong motivator to avoiding it again. It is good for individuals to do their best to be as motivated as they can with out any unhappiness, however I do not think humans in general have the power to completely reprogram this trait out of themselves.

-1DanArmak15y

That is exactly what I'm advocating. In my original example, use happy/positive emotions to feel better. Of course you can't literally do anything you like. Look at the previous sentence in my comment to see my meaning in context. What I meant was that you can use emotions in a way that, on the surface, does not correspond to the emotion's "intent". For instance, you can try to feel happy about things you have so far felt sad about, because you rationally prefer to be happy. Of course you won't always succeed fully, but you can try; it's a legitimate and often useful approach. I disagree. Evolution's purposes are not my own. The only purpose we share in common is my own survival, and even then, for me it's an absolute top-level goal while evolution often trades it away for other things. Again, even if it was true (which it isn't), it's unrelated to whether it's useful to me. I couldn't care less about evolution. Certainly that is the evolutionary reason for, and benefit of, feelings of unhappiness. But humans can behave consciously and rationally to avoid problems. Given this, the amount of negative emotions is vast overkill for the necessary purpose of conditioning, and I wish we could decrease it. It's similar to pain, which has a useful purpose, but there's just way too much of it.

2Davorak15y

We both used the word tool but I was not trying to advocating using "happy/positive emotions to feel better." I was trying to highlight the fact that emotions are a part of an efective evolutionary strategy and by using those strategy to reverse engineer your emotions you sometimes gain useful data to include in a rational thought process. I agree with this strategy when the emotion is evolutionary defective or if you would become dominated by your emotion otherwise(prevent you from acting rationally). In all other cases it is better to try and extract some useful data from the emotion+evolutionary strategy. I did not make the argument that the evolutionary purposes are your own and therefore emotions serve your purposes. Only that you can extract useful data, for your own purposes, from it because it arose from evolution/natural selection. What I take away from this is you are arguing for separating your emotions form you rational thoughts so your rational thoughts are not unduly influenced by your emotions. I was not making points counter to this train of thought. I was trying to highlight a use for emotions that not only were not mentioned in your original post, but that your post seem to make points that ran counter to it. In the cases that the emotional reaction is "overkill" like people that are severely depressed or suffer from other large emotional overreactions seem to be suffering from evolutionary flawed emotional reaction or an emotional reaction that evolved under different conditions and is no longer helpful(based on out of date data). I think we can both agree that these two categories of emotion are unproductive, so I am curious to know what categories you would add to my list which are orthogonal to the two categories I have provided. Edit: I had misplaced "(prevent you from acting rationally)"

0jsteinhardt15y

As DanArmak said, happiness and utility don't have to go hand in hand. There is no reason why you have to be sad even though all of your preferences fail to be met (on some level, if you no longer achieve basic needs like food, sleep, shelter, companionship, then it is hard physically to not feel sad, but that is a separate issue). Another thing to consider: by behaving rationally, you will probably end up doing better than 99% of other people in the world. Most of them seem basically happy with their lives, so there is a proof by example that it's possible to be happy even if is not achieved.

[-]Richard_Kennaway15y295

Does anyone have suggestions as to an appropriate response?

This is the universal condition of mankind.

You must succeed,
You may not succeed,
There's no-one to do it for you.

Adulthood is grokking this.

[-][anonymous]15y101

I like the ring of truth in this but I have great difficulty with it. Like, to the point that it's becoming a problem.

Other people stop wanting the impossible, wanting more instant gratification than is good for them, wanting easier solutions than exist, etc., but I never, ever stop wanting all of it. Sometimes I feel like a great hungry maw with an infinite sweet tooth. Utterly unreconciled with the "universal condition of mankind" and unready to grapple with it.

0Richard_Kennaway15y

Wanting's fine. All you have to do is work on getting it.

4Mass_Driver15y

Well, OK, that's a great summary. Thanks for condensing my post, I guess. Now, do you have any suggestions as to an appropriate response? How did you reach adulthood? Or have you? Once one groks these three principles, what should one do next?

4Costanza15y

RichardKennaway has hit the nail on the head. Mass_Driver, the question you ask is an old, old one, and I'm personally glad you raised it in this forum, because it's so fundamental. I think khafra is right to recommend that you take a look at the stoics. Classical stoicism is largely about dealing with the disappointments and general shittiness of life in a rational manner. More broadly, education in philosophy and literature and history and the rest of the humanities were once supposed to help us answer these questions, to give us a role to play in the story of life and a sense of perspective. I don't know anything about your education in the humanities in school, but mine was typical, and I think very bad.

2Mass_Driver15y

I'm sorry to hear it, Costanza. Sounds like you've managed to repair some of the damage, anyway. I will definitely take another look at the stoics. I've read a full book by Epictetus and another by Marcus Aurelius a few times each, and found it a bit Pollyanna-ish...not so much advice for coping with a shitty world as exercises for tricking yourself into believing it isn't shitty. There is a strand of mystical optimism even inside stoicism. Still, I will look again, and see what I can find. There was enough practical wisdom there that I can readily believe that they do have good advice for coping with adulthood. As far as my general liberal arts education, it's pretty good, but it's contaminated by Marx and Hegel and Maslow and so on...my sense of perspective is keyed to the theme of very bad things often happening to very good people but everything nevertheless working out OK.

3Costanza15y

Sounds like you've already taken quite a look at the stoics. On another thread on this forum, I've seen the advice to check out the works of Albert Ellis. See http://lesswrong.com/lw/3eo/theory_and_practice_of_meditation/ . This would be one more thing on the growing list of things I have yet to do myself. P.S. And fortyeridania's post on this very same thread.

-2DanArmak15y

Succeed.

7Perplexed15y

No, that is exactly wrong. The whole problem is that no course of action guarantees success. The world is throwing curveballs. My own solution is to shift my terminal values to the meta level. Instead of demanding success of myself (and then feeling bad if success turns out to be unattainable) I reward myself with a gold star if I judge that I have done my best. I live my life so as to have no regrets. The difficulty (you might call it a trap) in this approach is in the need to retain a brutal honesty. It may be very tempting to respond to failures by giving yourself the star anyways, with the excuse "How could I have known?". How could I have known that wouldn't work? How could I have known that is not what they wanted? How could I have known that my 'friend' was a con artist? There may well have been a way you could have known - clues that you missed. It can be tricky finding the middle road of learning from your mistakes, without falling into the error of denying mistakes or obsessing over them.

[-]Costanza15y100

This is a good point. It occurs to me that a disproportional number of people in this forum may have had the experience growing up of being the smartest, most promising kid in class. Maybe you were always put into the advanced classes even in subjects you weren't interested in. As you advance, the competition gets a little tougher, but you learn to push yourself, too.

For the overwhelming majority of people, this cycle has to end, early or late, with the shock of realizing that you are finally out of your league. Some poor bastard had to come to terms with knowing that he was obviously the dumbest physicist on the Manhattan Project, a net drag on the team.

The overwhelming number of people in historical times have died and been forgotten. How many people have lived? And of those, how many could possibly be even assigned a name by any historical records, let alone a place in popular memory?

[-]CronoDAS15y110

Some poor bastard had to come to terms with knowing that he was obviously the dumbest physicist on the Manhattan Project, a net drag on the team.

Q: What do they call the person who graduates at the bottom of their class at medical school?

A: Doctor.

0[anonymous]15y

Hell yeah! And may that doctor help to repair this deeply messed-up world!

5JoshuaZ15y

This doesn't follow. It might be that the dumbest person is still contributing productively. They'll just be contributing the least. Moreover, there might be enough variation in specific skill sets that no one is actually the dumbest (although I find this second argument to be weak. The truth is that some people really are better than others). Now it is more plausible that some of the dumber people who also worked less ended up distracting people in the project enough that they were net negatives. But that sort of argument requires that they be not only stupid but lazy and disruptive. In practice, few people with those traits last long in serious research.

1Costanza15y

This is true. I was thinking, though, of the purely emotional impact on someone who is used to being the smartest person in the room to suddenly finding himself the least smart person in the room. Specifically, it's a lesson I have had to learn myself -- for me, it was a lesson I started learning in high school, and have re-learned the lesson many, many times since then. It's not a fun lesson.

4timtyler15y

Maybe you will like this one: No Regrets, or: Edith Piaf Revamps Decision Theory - Frank Arntzenius

2Perplexed15y

Yes, indeed. I like it very much. Thank you. Though the recommendation might be more useful to people if it had appeared in a decision-theory (Newcomb, expected utility maximization, etc.) thread, rather than here in a practical rationality thread.

2timtyler15y

Yay - hookup points! I have mentioned that paper previously here - on the Ingredients of Timeless Decision Theory thread.

4Vladimir_M15y

Perplexed: Trouble is, "doing one's best" is an elusive concept. Sure, there are situations where you have a clear goal and see a clear plan of action for how to give your best shot at it, so if you fail despite following it, you can still give yourself a gold star for doing your best. But at least in my experience, typical mistakes and failures in life are nothing like that. Truly critical problems and dilemmas usually can't be tackled with such a clear and accurate model of reality. When I reflect on my own mistakes and failures, most of them were due to misunderstandings of the situation and errors of judgment that seem clear in retrospect and would have been avoided by someone more shrewd and knowledgeable in the same situations, but were completely beyond my mental and intellectual powers at the time. Others were due to lack of willpower that seems like "failure to do my best" in retrospect, but back at the time, the necessary level of willpower seemed (and probably was) impossible. In both sorts of situations, I did "give my best" in a very real sense, since nothing else could have been expected from me. But this leads to a tautological interpretation of "doing one's best" that would imply that nobody should ever have regrets about anything.

4Mass_Driver15y

C'mon; it's not as if I forgot about that part. There's only 26 words in the summary, and 2 of them are "succeed." What I'm looking for is details on how to find new coping mechanisms now that I'm not indulging in the belief that everything is supernaturally guaranteed to go acceptably well.

3DanArmak15y

I know. I was feeling snarky and defeatist. I apologize for not contributing to the discussion. I've posted my best idea on how to handle this as a top-level comment.

2Mass_Driver15y

Thanks; apology accepted.

[-]pjeby15y190

Civilization might collapse; I might get hit by a bus; or I might just claw through some of my biases but not others, make poor choices, and fail to accomplish much of anything.

If those things are true, then you were already enduring the possibility. Admitting it doesn't make it worse.

Rationality has stripped me of some of my traditional sources of confidence that everything will work out OK, but it hasn't provided any new ones -- there is no formula that I can recite to myself to say "Well, as long as I do this, then everything will be fine."

What do you need that confidence for?

In the last day or two, it's occurred to me that nearly all I have ever done in my life is try to solve problems and find the "right" answers, and one particularly perplexing puzzle I've been trying to solve, cannot be answered "correctly". It can only be answered by an essentially arbitrary choice on my part - a choice of what I want the answer to be.

One would think that this would be easy, then, but the catch is that to be "right", the choice has to be a choice, not an attempt to divine an optimal answer -- one that brings me the most pain or least pleasure... (read more)

0Dr_Manhattan15y

This sounds interesting. Can you give an example of such a beast?

1pjeby15y

Any creative endeavor, actually. How do you decide when something is finished? It really depends on your arbitrary, personal choice.

3Dr_Manhattan15y

Using magical aesthetic sense? This feels more like some neural network reaching a threshold than an "arbitrary choice". It's only arbitrary because it's not explainable.

5pjeby15y

And what part of your everyday experience would you expect to NOT involve "some neural network reaching a threshold"? ;-)

1Dr_Manhattan15y

Occasionally I find it easier making arbitrary decisions by tossing a coin; even without an explicit coin certain decisions are arbitrary by intent (e.g. mixed strategies in games would be an academic exaple), I would never go back and say I compromised my aesthetic sense on these due to laziness or whatever.

0pjeby15y

I don't see any connection between your answer and my question, nor do I see why you asked for an example or started this subthread in the first place.

1Dr_Manhattan15y

I understand the disconnect is frustrating, but my question was pure curiosity - trying to understand when "an essentially arbitrary choice" is the right choice is the right choice, and not satisfied with the "creative endeavor" answer. Feel free to not reply if this has no further interest to you.

-6MichaelVassar15y

[-]Nisan15y120

This might help:

If you genuinely attempt to succeed, then other people like you will also attempt to succeed, for the same reason rationalists can cooperate in the Prisoner's Dilemma. They will do so even if you get hit by a bus.

You are not alone.

[-]khafra15y90

Over on Hacker News, DanielBMarkham suggested a book detailing a modern take on the philosophy of stoicism. I got the book, and find it valuable. I don't agree with everything in it, and wish it had been written by a cognitive specialist instead of a popular author; but it specifically addresses being effective in the world without letting outcomes disrupt your tranquility.

8fortyeridania15y

I second khafra's suggestion that you look into Stoicism, although I have not read the book in question. At least in my case, regular reading of Marcus Aurelius's Meditations helped bring about a fundamental change in my paradigm. I now find myself much more in aware of my feelings and in control of my overall outlook (if not my every affective state). However, I also second khafra's reservation. Marcus Aurelius seems to have been a smart dude, but people have learned a lot in the last 1900 years. For the modern analogs of Stoicism, see cognitive behavioral therapy and its close cousin, REBT (rational emotive behavior therapy). They emphasize the importance of grokking the relationship between beliefs and emotions--emotions are a reaction to beliefs. (For good information on the Stoic views on this, see the aptly-titled Stoicism and Emotion.) Destructive emotions are caused by distorted beliefs. In REBT terms, these beliefs tend to contain implicit demands on ourselves, other people, or the world generally. For example, someone's depression might be based on the belief that they're inadequate. But according to REBT, that's not the end of the analysis: they also demand of themselves that they be "adequate," by some standard. (Without the demand, the belief would no more cause depression than any other belief would, e.g. "I'm too short to play in the NBA.")

1Costanza15y

Upvoted! I've been meaning to get that book for a while. Here's another take on it.

[-]JenniferRM15y70

My brother doesn't really trust anyone until they have had some sort of crushing failure in their life. Something like a divorce, getting kicked out of school, going bankrupt, being permanently injured and missing the Olympics team, or anything where years or decades of effort towards a goal have to be substantially written off.

The idea is that the person you are after a failure like that is much more likely to be stable in the face of additional adversity if for no other reason than you've got a pretty extreme data point that extends the range in which yo... (read more)

[-]MichaelVassar15y70

I think I could help, but it would take a while. I seriously need someone else to be able to start doing that helping in the not so long term. For now, I will flatly assert that I expect an intense, rational effort to succeed by a quite moderate number of otherwise ordinary people to be enough to swing the balance for the light-cone's future, but such an effort must actually acknowledge human realities and work with them, rather than punishing people for their imperfections.

0keefe14y

Understanding what some call the terror of the situation will change a lot. People should volunteer at shelters or prisons or with something like big brothers/big sisters and see the pain that stupidity, weakness, irrationality, love of ignorance and all the rest cause. The real terror of the traits commonly possessed by the people and economic entities that shape our society. Think hard about daily life in rural china, north korea, iran, the ghettos and the trailer parks and think about the evolutionary pressure that puts on the 150+ IQs that happen to be born there and what the consequences of a little bit of love and reason can be. Thinking about this forces one to admit to selfishness and yield to temptation or intentional suffering to purify this, or admit that one is choosing love of misery over ripples of rationality that can add to a critical mass for breaking cycles of ignorance, corruption and abuse.

0John_Maxwell15y

"otherwise ordinary people" Are you really sure about this?

1MichaelVassar15y

I don't mean average, but yes, ordinary, as in typical physics PhD from a good but not necessarily very top program. Darwin and Smith seem to have been such people to start, but aspired to more. Possibly Socrates and Einstein. No Newtons required, nor even Faradays or Fields Medalists.

0keefe14y

even the most extraordinary eat, shit, sleep, fuck, become addicted and I also feel that merging needs is the key to cooperation

[-]Eneasz15y70

I would never recommend this for anyone, but my personal solution has been very liberal quantities of vodka.

[-]TheOtherDave15y70

Primarily, the way I deal with this sort of fear is by attempting to be as aware as possible of what , specifically, I am scared of right now.

I often find that the vague fears -- civilization might collapse, I might not accomplish much, etc -- are built on top of more specific and personal ones, and that identifying the latter makes the resulting emotion much less paralyzing. (I also find that my specific and personal fears are often embarrassing as all heck, which is part of why I find it tempting to engage with the larger and vaguer ones instead.)

I don't mean to make this sound easy... it really isn't. But it is simple.

0Mass_Driver15y

No, that's definitely a good point; I do that too sometimes. Talk therapy or even just a good friend who will call bullshit on you repeatedly can make it a lot easier to identify the specific and personal fears. Things are going relatively well in my personal life right now, and as far as I can tell I am scared of my own success, I think. I'm not sure what action steps to take on that fear.

3TheOtherDave15y

(nods) That's pretty common. It might help to ask yourself what, specifically, you fear about your own success.

[-]Vaniver15y70

The concern is that it may not ever be better enough for me to register a sense of approval or contentedness.

Contentedness is based on the interaction of your desires and your outcomes. You are becoming more realistic about your outcomes (this includes 'expected outcomes' here because we are predictors and count the future as part of the present). What is the natural next step?

The future is an uncertain, scary place. That means normality is a win. Every day you and the people you love survive without injury is a win. Every day you sit down and improve s... (read more)

6Mass_Driver15y

You seem to be arguing that I should lower my sense of which outcomes are "good enough" so as to match the outcomes that are likely to happen, but I'm not convinced. My sense of what is good enough is deeply entangled with my emotions and my moral intuitions -- even if I could artificially lower it, the side effects would probably do more harm than just allowing myself to be scared or upset about the likelihood of not-good-enough outcomes.

[-]Costanza15y50

To be honest, questions like these remind me of why it was completely stupid to aspire to being a rationalist. Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise. I'm reminded of how Draco Malfoy felt in Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality when the main character seduced him to the dark path of science. A lot of religious believers are genuinely comforted by their nonsensical faith. Too late now, for me and thee (you who are reading this). We're fucked now, and there's no going back. Just have to make the best of it.

[-]ata15y100

To be honest, questions like these remind me of why it was completely stupid to aspire to being a rationalist. Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise.

...unless you have something more important to achieve than bliss, or expect that you might discover some such thing if you relinquish enough ignorance.

9Costanza15y

First: Is there something better than bliss? Is bliss different than what the economists would call utility? Second: Now I'm on the side of rationality, and hope to relinquish as much ignorance as possible. But it would be wrong to ignore the very real fears noted by Mass_Driver, who initiated this discussion. Don't get me wrong! I'm on board now. But isn't there something of the basilisk about rationality? This is a real question. I expect it may be somewhere in a part of the sequences I haven't read. If so, a pointer would be welcome. Unless it's another basilisk, leading to a still lower circle of Hell. Ah, fuck it. Just let me know anyway.

3ata15y

Very different — utility is about the things you consider valuable, and bliss is one feedback signal that tells you (often incorrectly) that you're doing something valuable (or, more generally, tells you to keep doing whatever you just did). This distinction is explained pretty well in Terminal Values and Instrumental Values, in the part starting at "Consider the philosopher who asserts..." I don't disagree with that. Off the top of my head, this is touched on in Why Truth? and Incremental Progress and the Valley. Though I feel like I'm forgetting at least one good one.

3Costanza15y

That's an awesome and useful answer! No sarcasm or irony. I will read that at once. And upvoted. P.S. God damn, the sequences are long.

1David_Gerard15y

Personally, I find I do better seeking satisfaction than happiness per se. YMMV, of course.

0Vaniver15y

There is. Pretty much every transition upwards is one feared by the previous step- the infant feels worse off after leaving the womb, the adult feels worse off after puberty, and so on. But I see little to recommend the view that growth should be avoided because it is often unpleasant.

5[anonymous]15y

This is a minor quibble, but -- the thing about the babies is speculation, since nobody really remembers how happy they might have been in the womb. My babies showed some evidence of discomfort in the cramped quarters of the womb (a lot of kicking, especially toward the end), and they displayed a lot of pleasure in things like nursing and cuddling and being played with once they got out into the world. If I had to guess I would say they were happier after birth. For the puberty thing, I know that I felt much, much better once I was out of adolescence. So experiences vary.

0Vaniver15y

Right, I think I misworded it (and it could be the point is totally wrong)- this stage seems worth it by our standards now but didn't seem worth it by last stage's standards.

[-]cousin_it15y40

Phil Goetz would say that your technical guy is afraid of the driver's seat. Maybe he will be less afraid after you let him drive for awhile, or maybe you should just put him back in his preferred role like I did.

0Mass_Driver15y

Awesome.

[-]CronoDAS15y40

It seems like most people are reasonably satisfied with whatever kind of life they ended up having. To the extent that you are indeed like other people, this should be reassuring.

1Mass_Driver15y

Seems like hindsight bias, though, no? I mean, you can't go back and change the life you've already had, so there's not much point in getting upset about it post hoc. Right now, though, I can change my life, at least in theory. So it's not much good taking comfort in the fact that someday it will be too late. Right now it's not too late, and right now I'm scared.

[-]Dr_Manhattan15y30

I "suffered" quite a bit from this when extracting myself from religion, which takes the "Univese has a fail-safe" feeling to great heights (it's my personal candidate for the strongest emotion keeping people in religion).

My advice is to "accept things one cannot change" and compartmentalize them away. This manifests in my attitude to survivalism: I am somewhat prepared for things I can do something about, but that 2-mile tsunami (or stray bullet in the head) possibility, well, I don't think about it (other than another reaso... (read more)

1Mass_Driver15y

Well, let's talk about that for a moment. What are some reasonable things to do to prepare for disaster? I have thought about stockpiling water, iodine, vitamins, and stuff like that. Also about getting a second passport. I don't have a keen grasp on what's reasonable and what's paranoia. I'm also not sure what kinds of disasters are worth living through -- water seems like a no-brainer; the water supply could easily be interrupted and travel cut off in my city for a few days without anywhere near enough damage to collapse civilization. Vitamins, a little bit less so -- if I actually have to worry about scurvy because the canned fruit has run out and there's no way to travel 200 miles to the farms (I'm in California), maybe there isn't too much worth living for.

2Dr_Manhattan15y

http://www.amazon.com/Emergency-This-Book-Will-Save/dp/0060898771/ref=sr_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1293151319&sr=1-4 not the best reference content, but he works it out like a rational person, rather than give caches answers "from his army training", like some other authors (however good they might be)

0Mass_Driver15y

Agree on all fronts. Part of why I'm scared this week and not some other week is because my IRL friends have mostly checked out for Xmas.

[-]AdeleneDawner15y30

Most people don't do much, if any, work on being rational, and they do 'okay'.

Actually, the word 'okay' itself is a bit misleading here - there's an absolute meaning of the word that means something like 'having access to enough resources to survive', and then there's a personal one - whatever you meant when you said "fulfilling anything like my full potential to help others and/or produce great art", in your case. For the first definition, unless you're in an unusual situation, you should be pretty comfortable assuming that you'll be okay. (Well... (read more)

[-]Cole Wyeth2mo20

Life is risky. I find it much easier to tolerate when well-rested, well-fed, and not too isolated. Also, don’t read “the precipice” before bed.

[-]tailcalled4mo20

I did well by taking care of myself and trying to help things progress.

[-]daijin4mo20

It's been 15 years. Did you figure out how to be less scared?

5Mass_Driver4mo

I mostly just got older and therefore calmer. I've crossed off most of the highest-priority items from my bucket list, so while I would prefer to continue living for a good long while, my personal death and/or defeat doesn't seem so catastrophically bad anymore, and to cope with the loss of civilization/humanity I read a lot of history and sci-fi and anthropology and other works that help me zoom out and see that there has already been great loss and that while I do want to spend my resources fighting to reduce the risk of that loss, it's not something I need to spend a lot of time or energy personally suffering over, especially not in advance. Worry is interest paid on trouble before it's due.

[-]artsyhonker15y20

I think it's quite understandable to fear for your future based on the evidence presented.

I find the worst thing about such fears is the way they can detract from my ability to take useful actions.

I find one helpful method is to re-frame my thinking. No, I have no guarantee that everything will turn out "all right" for any given value of that. However, so far I have been through more than I once thought I could cope with. Am I unscarred? Certainly not. But I have work that I enjoy, people in my life I love and who care about me. I have food and s... (read more)

[-]Aryn14y10

I've experienced (well, also currently experiencing) a related fear of a specific part of rationality. I've seen some people on LW and many more on OvercomingBias express beliefs that the conscious mind, the part I can call me, is so out of control that all it's good for is making up stories, rationalizing the actions of an unconscious mind guided by outdated programming and environmental factors.

Mostly, I think, I reject this idea because it would essentially mean declaring everything I've done, every decision I've ever made, and every decision I will mak... (read more)

[-]Ulisse Mini2mo00

Do some inner work (emotional/meditative) to learn to process emotions and feel them without suffering. I highly recommend Joe Hudson's stuff. Huge missing piece of the rationalist project, we make emotional decisions and can't just "notice and be unmoved" by what we're feeling, you need to get back to a secure equilibrium where there's no big emotional experience you're avoiding.

Don't fall entirely into the rationalist frame, it has some great stuff and also a lot of subtle bias that can drive you half insane. Speaking from experience lol.

(Apologies mods if this double sent - in a plane rn about to take off.)

[-]Ulisse Mini2mo00

Don't fall entirely into the rationalist frame, it has some great stuff and also a lot of subtle bias that can drive you half insane. Speaking from experience lol.

[-]daddyhominum15y-10

I like your piece, Mass_Driver.
I hope you can tolerate my discourse as a sort of 'stream of consciousness'. What is the proper contribution of a rational person that will give meaning and enjoyment in life? I decide to test the question against the little I know about such things. What is the natural role of individuals in evolution? I believe it is simply to pass on the species to the next generation through supporting current living species success. Evolution has no interest in my individual skills and outputs. It wants another generation of my species. ... (read more)

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